My experiences this week seem to have affected people quite strongly, much more strongly indeed than I imagined they would. Three separate people have contacted me to express their horror at my plight, and to offer support.
I am immensely touched by the amount of concern that people are showing towards me, but I do want you to know that I am back to my normal self. The nausea is a nuisance, but it’s not really that hard to deal with, and the tweak to my prescription has helped. It is certainly worth investigating the causes behind what happened. I can see two courses of events. Either it keeps happening, in which case we’ll gather the evidence we need to understand and prevent it; or it doesn’t happen often enough to solve it. Given the excellence of my care, I’m not afraid of the second course, and the first is a good outcome. In either case, I am not worried about this little problem.
I know very well that I frightened Gillian on Sunday, but as far as I was concerned I never had a moment’s doubt that everything would turn out all right in the end. I didn’t even feel particularly bad during the entire incident, which is why I am not too concerned about it happening again.
What I’m really trying to say, or rather ask, is that you not worry about me. If I write something that seems scary, it probably wasn’t scary to me, or I wouldn’t have written about it that way. Remember, this blog is a place for me to be positive about my situation, not to complain about it. Nothing I ever write here will be a complaint, unless it is very clearly signposted as such. Even then, I will almost certainly be complaining about a situation that affects everyone, such as the ridiculous IP protection provisions in the current draft of the Digital Economy Bill.
In short, I am fine now, and I’m sorry that I worried you. I never intended to. I’ll try not to do it again.
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Chris
Thanks for giving us permission not to worry, but the nature of love and friendship includes worrying. It’s probably because we’re not physically involved in the way you and obviously Gillian are. It’s hard being outside looking in
Keep it up
Sophie
I thought it was a request rather than permission, but never mind. I do understand that people will worry, but I don’t want you to worry about things that are as under control as they can be. I find it hard that I cause other people any suffering through something I have accepted and cannot change. If you really want to worry about something dear to me, then please worry about Gillian, who gets far less attention than I do, but deserves far more.
Chris,
Your Moo cards were on my flickr page today as photos from my contacts and I ended up here, in utter disbelief… I doubt that there are any words that I can put together to convey my thoughts, but I would like you to know that you have my utmost admiration for the courage you are showing daily. If there is anything that I can do for you, then drop me a line.
All the best,
Tim
Tim, what a way for you to find this out! It was a shock when I first found out too, as you’ll see if you read some of the earlier blog entries, but I quickly grew used to the idea. I’m not sure I’ll ever grow used to the idea of people thinking me brave, as I believe it can only be courage if you have a choice, and I don’t feel that I do. It’s very much easier for me to be positive than not. As for things you can do, just read the blog, and comment occasionally, that is the sort of thing I find really helpful, as it helps keep me blogging, which helps keep me positive, which maintains my “courage”. 😉
Chris
Good to see you in the hospital this week. You looked better than I would have expected, given the treatment that you have been through.
Hope the next few weeks go well.
Will keep in touch with your blog.
All the best
Martin Wadley
Martin, thank you very much. That’s very good to hear. I hope you enjoy your browsing here.