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Feeling like Wile E. Coyote

By Gillian

You remember that cartoon with the roadrunner who always outsmarted the coyote? Well, I feel like the latter right now – as if I’ve been running & running and now I’ve run right off the edge of the adrenaline cliff. I’ve looked down and am standing on thin air…..

Running off the edge of the cliff

I’d expected that now I’ve steered Chris through five rounds of chemo, two bouts of radiotherapy, several emergency trips to hospital and one nasty brush with neutropenia, that I’d feel so much better now that he’s in partial remission. In that time I’ve also brought to a successful conclusion four major projects at work, and spent the last few weeks before our holiday madly bidding for the follow-on programme, with another bid due to start next week.

I think that on holiday I relaxed for the first time in six months – at least after it became clear that Chris was going to be able to cope with it, and we wouldn’t need my sister to charge to the rescue and medically evacuate us back to Cheltenham. As a result, I have realised for the first time just how shattered I am. Pretty much all I’ve done since we got home from Wales is sleep, around 11 hours a night which is pretty much unheard of! I went to my GP on Monday, and he signed me off work for a week with exhaustion, and has given me a stern talking to about not trying to do so much.

I hope that this enforced week off will give me a chance to recharge my batteries, before entering the fray once more. After all, I’ll be no use to either Chris or to my employer if I’m too tired to pull my weight.

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  1. Mantina Ahlijah | 23 June 2010 at 10:26 pm | Permalink

    Rest please rest
    I really don’t know how you are coping
    So rest please rest

  2. Jayne Alexander | 24 June 2010 at 6:55 pm | Permalink

    Gillian I am suprised you have lasted as long as you have done. This week off by your doc is the best thing that could happen. Chilax and send my lov to Chris x

  3. Richard P | 24 June 2010 at 8:03 pm | Permalink

    We hope it won’t be too long before it’s wholy unsafe to offer our sympathy and encouragement to forget about work for a while. As ever, we’re thinking of you both, and look forward to subcontracting any dessert-testing that comes along.
    Please let us know whenever we can help make the cliffs a little smaller.
    Best wishes,

  4. David Allsopp | 24 June 2010 at 10:31 pm | Permalink

    I recall that, although the coyote often suffered these precipitous moments (and the inevitable falls), he always dusted himself off and set about a new roadrunner-catching scheme… 😉

    Have a good rest!

  5. Richard A | 25 June 2010 at 6:53 am | Permalink

    Did someone mention dessert-testing? If you’re putting that work out to tender, let me know!

    How about we organise a pudding fest with a catchy name like …” The Big Chiller Cabinet” ?

    Hope you’re having a really good rest and plenty of desserts.

  6. Fabienne P | 25 June 2010 at 6:14 pm | Permalink

    Richard A – I’m afraid Richard P’s comment was rather ambiguous. We just need some people to taste and test some home-made puddings and I’m afraid C&G’s palates are rather hard to beat. 😉

  7. Paul Ducksbury | 26 June 2010 at 8:55 am | Permalink

    Oh employers wont like it these days if people are too tired to pull their weight, 🙂

    On the other hand i’d still put employer second and yourself first.

  8. Gillian | 26 June 2010 at 11:57 am | Permalink

    Thanks very much everybody for your good wishes. This week away from work relaxing has left me feeling much more like myself.

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